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Heyyyy~ I'm not used to writing here, can you tell? :lol:

So, like, since this is my what, third journal in a year? (Seriously, self? Really?) I've decided to buck up and finally explain just what's been going on over the past... age. xD I've been suffering from chronic anxiety - I always knew I had it, but it was diagnosed by my doctor over the course of the past several months. My self esteem hit rock bottom, as did my confidence. It started to develop into some grim thinking and I found myself horribly depressed. The past twelve months especially have been spent trying to rebuild myself and try to find my path in life. Finally I think we just may have hit a breakthrough.

I'll be working as a volunteer for a local charity very soon. They were advertising and I followed it up and applied. I've had all my references checked out and approved and met personally with the woman behind the scheme. I just need some papers to come through via letter and we SHOULD be good to go and my training can start. I'm quite excited by the whole thing, really! I hope this can lead to some good things in the future! <3

This wasn't something I was comfortable talking about until now, I couldn't shake of the feeling of shame. I felt like such a lost cause, but finally I think there's a light at the end of this decade long tunnel. I'm sorry for keeping this hush hush for so long.

On another note, I'll most likely be going to the MCM event in Birmingham tomorrow. Should be fun! <3

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:Finally, to wrap up this journal. I've been tagged by the lovely :iconlineith:
Let's do this. :plotting:

1. Name something edible you wouldn't eat for any amount of money (not a question but...)
- Any kind of meat. Or bugs. No, thanks. D:

2. Do you collect anything? If not, what would you collect if you could?
- I collect figures and merchandise of my favourite things. I also wanna start a collection of tea cups and saucers. <3

3. Any phobias?
- Under water stuff can scare me silly. Even in games, no, especially in games I freeze up when presented with a task involving sea creatures. It took me years to get over Great Bay, dammit. D: AC: Black Flag? Let's not go into that one. Also, spiders. D:

4. When it comes to literature, what's your favorite genre?
Hrm... fantasy wins me over every time.  ...That does count doesn't it? Please don't tell me no. >:

5. Where do you see yourself in 10 years and doing what?
We kinda can't predict the future, so I really can't answer his one properly. The future scares me, anyway. D:

6. What do you think of your current art/writing/craft skills/level?
Ehhh... okay but needs work? I look back on my older stuff and think whoa, but... it'd be nice to better myself further.
I mean I have friends on here who have made AMAZING improvements over such a short time frame. Can't help but feel inadequate in comparison. :giggle:

7. What inspires you?
Music is a huge thing for me. My favourite games and their soundtracks - and their concept arts when they're available. Just incredible. <3

8. One thing you couldn't possibly live without?
I don't like calling her a "thing", but my Mom. She has ALWAYS been there for me, I don't know how I could've coped without her.
My whole family of course for the same reasons and those close to me who haven't grown tired of me yet. :giggle:

9. Do you have any hobbies I don't know about?
Does going to a gym count as a hobby? Why do I feel like that's a real stupid question? :lol:
I like making cakes too, but that never happens anymore wah. ;^;

10. Heroes or Villains? Why?

Ah man don't do this to me. I er, both? Depending? I also seem to like the turncoats, who leave but were technically on your side in the end? Whatdotheycountas? D:

. . . I'm terrible at these things orz
Check this out instead, it's wayyyy better! <3

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Bye! Thanks for reading! :iconiluplz:




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StaciNadia's avatar
~hugs~  I'm glad you're getting the help you need for your anxiety!  Working for a charity sounds like a great confidence booster!